Posted by ♥ Mommy Sammy ♥ on February 17, 2010
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Yesterday, I saw that JC’s ex girlfriend was calling AGAIN for the nth time last night, I decided it was time to talk to her, woman to woman. I needed some respect, because this is OUR relationship, and I don’t like this feeling that someone is being a threat to that relationship. I didn’t really want a long argument over it, and I didn’t want to waste her time or mine. So I decided to just send her a text message telling her to stop calling and texting JC because we just want a little quiet in our lives. She texted me that she wanted to talk. I have had enough of this talk, because I already tried talking to her last year but we ended up fighting because she told me she won’t give up on JC. I didn’t want or need any more stress in my life, so I told her there is really no need to talk and all I want is for her to just move on with her life so we can move on with ours. She insisted on calling me, so I told her OK. She apologized for everything, and she explained that the only reason she was calling is to ask how things are with JC. She explained that there is nothing going on, and that in fact, she already likes someone else. She told me she’s friends with almost all her other ex bfs, and that JC is no different. Well, I’m friends with most of my exes too, in fact, I have constant communication with some of them through text or Facebook, so I understood what she meant. Well, I told myself it’s time to forgive and forget. Holding a grudge against someone is not good for anyone, and the only way to be able to completely move forward is by learning to forgive the things they did, and forgetting the past.
I AM HAPPY. I no longer have this nagging feeling at the back of my head, and I no longer feel that there is a threat in our relationship. I AM FREE. I no longer have to think of ways to get back at her, and this is a wonderful feeling of freedom.
We might have coffee together one of these days.. Oh joy. (That is not being sarcastic.)
Again, I thank the Lord for giving me a chance to move forward, and for finally giving me the peace of mind that I so badly need. And I also ask the Lord for forgiveness, for thinking of several nasty plans to get revenge, which really isn’t good at all.
Posted by ♥ Mommy Sammy ♥ on February 16, 2010
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God works in mysterious ways indeed. Last week, I blogged about thinking of going back to work in a call center. Our needs are getting bigger, and I really want to save up. My paid opps online aren’t as frequent since a month ago, due to the fact that I lost my page rank. I chatted with my friend the day after I posted that, and she’s a really old friend of mine, who is also my “buddy” in Victory Christian Fellowship. I was telling her how I miss going to Church, and how my life is going on at the present. Trust in God is what she has always been reminding me. “You work hard, you try your best. HE will provide.” And trust I did. I was supposed to have an interview with the “dream company” I was telling K, Ate Tey and Yuuki about. It was perfect, was what I said. Good compensation, allowances, etc. I cancelled my interview. 2 days later, I got an email from one of the buyers in oDesk that he is hiring me for a permanent job. God must have known that this is what I wanted and that little Sanjo needs his mom at home. (I don’t have a maid).. All I can say now is that “Praise GOD! He truly works in mysterious but wondrous ways.” And just the other day, I got my PR back. Isn’t He wonderful?
I have just started my online gig yesterday, but no worries. I will still have time to bloghop. 
Posted by ♥ Mommy Sammy ♥ on February 5, 2010
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Now that I am starting to look for a full-time job OUTSIDE our home, again starts the debate with myself. Suddenly, I feel like it’s “not right” to start working, because my little Sanjo needs me. Even though I know that I will be working for his needs and his future, I can’t shake off the nagging feeling that a full-time working mom just isn’t as good as a full-time stay at home mom.
Then I remembered this particular episode on Oprah that I was able to watch. I remember the psychologist saying that “it doesn’t make you less of a mother if you choose to work full-time”.. I should start saying that repeatedly to myself, so that I can stop worrying that I’m a bad mother for choosing to work instead of taking care of my baby. It’s not that I won’t be taking care of Sanjo, I will still be taking care of him when I’m home, and during my days off. I just hope I can stop feeling guilty about working. If only my Bubby was earning enough for all our expenses, I can stay home. But we’re really struggling with our finances, and the online gigs I get aren’t enough to cover what we need.
So what is your take on this issue? Do you think that full-time working moms aren’t as good as full-time stay home moms?
